Not going so well

My ch cha changes are not going quite as planned.  I drank on Friday night.....  a lot!  Enough to piss off and dissapoint myself; enough to make me want to sleep the majority of Sat and have no energy to get the things done that I wanted too for my moms dinner.

I had a great! (rough) week at work.  Daddy was out on vaca, D had a funeral to be at; M was out on vaca, R was out on vaca and then L was out on Thurs and Fri.  Exhausting!  

The kids were home for the weekend and B had no idea what to make for dinner, so I went to Honey B's. ordered food and had a (ONE) beer.  It was good and I hadn't drank in almost a whole week.  Stopped and got six for me and B to share.....  no biggie.   Well C&B were over with my baby and the boys had been drinking Bloody Mary's already, so.....  and then J&C showed up, with beer, and I got my beer to myself.

So on Sat when all was going well and my mom was already here AND so was everyone else, I sat down on the couch to visit and totally thought I would fall asleep....  so hair of the dog....  so it goes (stole that from K.V.).  I was lazy again yesterday BUT not enough to make me miss class at church.

Glad that I went, but the group has really gotten small. I counted 10 of us, the same 10 that were there last week.  I wanted to go to service as well, but A was not home from his cousin's house at the time he was supposed to be.

I am nervous about leaving the kids during the week for school.  I guess it will only be one really late night with them and I am hoping that Josh can find them some service work for an hour before their class and that I can get them home.....  somehow.  Bess is good for one day out of the month.  Pam said she would help if needed.  I am hoping by then Ben will have confidence in driving (or me in him) and can just do it.  I am going to take and early day off or a late morning in to get his license this week.  Whew!  Then when my policy come up in another month for renewal I will put the car on full coverage and drop the Burb off.

It rained last night, good enough so that I dont have to water the grass this morning. Yay!  I do need to get moving tho.  I have breakfast to make, a shower to take and luch to pack and I wanted to get out the door early.  I need to start getting up earlier!  I have no time as it is right now for running and making breakfast and getting the chores done.  I wonder how that will work when I am coming home at 10:30 at night two times a week in the fall?  I am also wondering about boot camp.....  Will I be satisfied going only three times a week?  Should I just join a gym with better hours?  And if I did that and I have class four nights out of the week....  when would I go??  Class on Mon, Tue, Thurs and Wed night, softball on Fri night....  that would leave Mon, Wed a.m. and Sat and Sun.  That would be a cheaper four days a week, but not near the workout.  Maybe that will be fine for the fall and then see what happens come the new year and a new schedule.....

Ahhh  geeezzzz so much that I want to cram into my week.  My schedule will be so very full and no CR for the whole fall too unless I went on Saturdays.....

Monday exercise in the a.m. and then class from 5 to 10:30 (Aaron can get the kids), Tues class from 5 to 7, late dinner but do-able, Wed exercise in the a.m.? and then class from 5 to 10:30- I would try and get the kids to church early and have someone pick them up, they would be on their own for the rest of the night, but they would eat dinner at church.  Thurs class from 5 to 7 (Aaron would get the kids), Fri exercise in the a.m.? and then softball at night.  Sat exercise and CR in the evenings (??), Sunday church, class and then exercise???  I may be way too tired in the mornings to get up and get going and then when would I really have time for homework?  Burning the candle at both ends....  Whats new, right??

I wouldn't have too much time to drink nor a boyfriend.....  Would my schedule be just as rigorous the next sememester??  Should I change it now??

I am also concerned about Adi and school and boys this next month.  Hmmmmm.....

Got to go......

Ch Cha Changes....

I hope anyway.  Went to church for a change.  Jogged tonight with Ben even tho it was 101 and humid.  Decided to quit driking beer for the month of my birthday (now).  And started the 17 day diet.  I am tired of being tired.  I am tired of being fat and feeling lazy.

Had breakfast with Charlene this morning.  It was very nice.  We are going to CR on Wednesday at WOG.

Had a weird thing happen in church on Sunday.  One of the regulars freaked out in service thinking the pastor was the FBI and that the FBI was out to get him.  Crazy.  Then he ended up in our class room.....  Luckily the guys knew him well and escorted him out and calmed him down.  Luckily he was in a safe place to have a melt down!

Caught up with Robbin tonight on FB.

It is the Fourth of July.... Used to be my fav holiday.  The dogs are barking and freaked out over the noise.

My garden is doing pretty good.  Work is ok.  Will be busy tomorrow with so many ppl out.  Changed my major to architecture!

I hope anyway.  I haven't been accepted just yet.  Im tired of being a poor nobody.

I am.....  Holy and with out blemish.  That is what the pastor told us.  Makes one want to persevere in their faith!